First entry more to come!!

Change is very difficult for most people, for me in particular it is extremely hard. I recently graduated with my bachelors in psychology and I had plans to go to grad school right away but that didn't happen and i'm okay with that for now... and I have the desire to get an ABA job but instead I am being a nanny come October and again something I am okay with but its not my career goal and they know that but I need to still search for schools figure out what im doing with my life cant just sit and hope it figures itself out... now that would be nice wouldn't it. I recently started working out again because I am unhappy in the body that i'm in and only way that will change is if I make some changes and thats very hard to do to break out of certain habits that I have developed for myself. Everything was going really well while I was working at the Y I was working out all the time like everyday if not at least Monday-FRIDAY  and now that I have no work I have so much time on my hands and not sure what do with it I kind of lost my gym routine and am struggling to get back I know I will it just takes time. Lately I have been super sad like in a funk.. I am dog sitting and not saying i'm sad being here but right now I think I need to be around people who love and support me because i'm in a time of need. I feel lonely because all my friends are still in college and Im not I graduated I am going to visit them on Saturday to celebrate a friends birthday which is exciting but i'm just sad and I know it will pass but It fucking sucks feeling this way it really does but I need to look on the positive side and to not let myself sink in the couch and cry all day I need to exercise, get fresh air feel good about self I know in time things will get better stay posted.....